I wonder if I'm getting more and more stupid.

I know grades shouldn't matter that much. But it really feels bad when I know I can achieve better results than this.

All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.

I'm gonna be Jack next term. :(

WARNING TO ALL: DO NOT TRUST SURVEY RESULTS

The truth is, people who do surveys don't take them seriously. My aunt just reminded me of that fact. I asked her to fill in a survey for me as course credit for one of my modules. One of the profs in the school set this survey which has questions asking how you regard time & money with respect to work and home and also includes questions testing your mathematical abilities. My aunt couldn't do the math questions and rang me up to ask for the answers.

Well, I initially told her she was supposed to answer them herself. She retorted that it would be better if she were to answer them correctly. Being a little annoyed (because she has started reading the questions one by one waiting for my answers and I was trying to read my company law notes before being disturbed by her call), I gave her the answers.

BAH, she made me feel bad about rendering the survey results inaccurate. BUT OH WELL, which survey results are 100% accurate ANYWAY?

casual friends?

many.

close friends?

i seem to have none anymore. :(

Where's time?

it was what i fell in love with.

i saw it on you last year. then on him this year, under the same circumstances.

oh the charms of a smile.

when your bf, sis and best friend are all away,

you feel really lonely.

all my close friends don't seem to have time for me too :(

and i think it's my fault.

I didn't know our quarrels could extend a few thousand miles away.

Don't understand don't understand.
At all.

dealing with unhappiness

when you're irritated, frustrated, or upset, do you vent out all that out with sighs and laments? and whine about why things always go wrong?

if you say no, then do you instead put on a sullen face and keep quiet so everyone can tell you are not feeling good but you refuse to tell anyone what has happened?

or, lastly, do you plaster a huge smile over your lips and laugh at everything. pretend to be happy... when you're feeling all rotten inside.

i think these are the 3 ways people deal with unhappiness. i can already think of people falling into these 3 categories. not that any one of the ways is better than the others... but i think the 3rd way just makes you grow tired of putting up a false front all the time.

anw i think i'm #2. what r u?

I NEED TIME!

HELP.

It's all about band these few days. But sadly, it hasn't been too much of happy stuff.

If having to be perpetually unhappy constitutes a part of being a leader, then i'm sorry, I won't want to be one. The true leader doesn't lament about pertinent issues; he resolves them. A true leader doesn't criticize people and call it part of his job; he inspires such that his members feel motivated to improve. I don't think there's one hard and fast rule to leadership - everyone works in a way he or she feels comfortable in.

I am still working on it; but you are seriously making me think twice.

the zoo

I visited the zoo today! I cannot really recall when I stepped into the zoo the last time; it seems like such a long time ago, even though the zoo is quite near my place!

The award for the most interesting animal goes to the baboons! They have ugly bums, especially females who are ready to mate. It's swollen, RED and looks like a lump (tumor-like growth). UGH. I need to check out what 'harem' means! Saw it on the boards which gave descriptions of baboon behaviour.

:)

Communication. Something we all do everyday, well almost at least. But who can really say they are great communicators?

Yes I shall give this relationship one more try. :) at least i m happy i've finally said everything on my mind that's been bothering me..

my dear friends, i'm tired.
tired of finding out things I should have known earlier.

i know i should be capable of making my own decisions.
but i am lost and confused.

he asked me to believe.
but i find it really difficult to.

when does he really mean what he says?

i'm not materialistic.

I am back again.

I dislike blogs which are too emotional and depressing. But recently, I too, have fallen prey to writing sappy entries about being hurt, being angry, being upset. Then i realised, we are more inclined to blog when we are feeling upset, to vent all our frustrations through writing. Posting these entries seem to make ourselves feel better. However, these entries affect the reader's moods instead. So since I have the choice, I'd choose to keep these feelings to myself.

That said, I'm a happy girl now! Or at least I try to be one. =)

The past few weeks have been nothing but BOREDOM. Thinking back, I could have put the time I had to greater use, like doing social work, or even learn to cook or bake something. I guess this thought came a little too late.. Going to Europe in 3 days, and when I come back, I'll be starting work already.

happy birthday huang ah mean!

terribly hurt.

finance

really. i am sick of all my group members.
slid shod work. perpetual lateness for meetings. laziness and tardiness.
i thought i was bad enough (when doing my LTB and FA project). seems like there's always a mountain higher (or in this sense, an ocean deeper).
don't ask me to do other mods with you guys. i don't want to be doing most of the work again. =(

closed blog

this is the first time i'm reading specifically to myself. =)

i'm not sure what love is. sometimes i feel our relationship is going nowhere and tend to wanna give it up. but other times, i still want to give in my best to this.

when i feel upset, i think there are only 2 things that can cheer me up.
1. you, because you are making me upset and you can cheer me up
2. think that i don't have a boyfriend. it cheers me up because i get less affected by your actions, or the lack of them.

but if you are perpetually unhappy, i guess i have to resort to the second option. and when i keep doing this, i tend to wonder. why do i even have a boyfriend in the first place?!

that said aside, i'm glad i mentioned about being unhappy to you. things seem better now. but i will never know if you are truly happy or if you are pretending just to make me happy.

happy cny

wheee.. i m so happy seeing cindy's comment on my blog =) really miss the babe alot.. and i really haven't got to see her online at all.

ok i am pissed @ myself again. grrr

happy cny to whoever that reads my blog!! which are none other than the few.

Stupid Cycle

This stupid cycle just repeats over and over again. Momentary happiness occurs, then some form of awkwardness arises and finally a bout of sadness overwhelms me. Up to this point I'm still contemplating. And yet the longer it drags, the harder it is for me to do something about it.Then, she cries again.

What am I supposed to do?

Anyway I really don't understand people who like to drown their sorrows in alcohol. Just find some better way please.

p.s. don't ask what's wrong. because i don't know.