terribly hurt.

finance

really. i am sick of all my group members.
slid shod work. perpetual lateness for meetings. laziness and tardiness.
i thought i was bad enough (when doing my LTB and FA project). seems like there's always a mountain higher (or in this sense, an ocean deeper).
don't ask me to do other mods with you guys. i don't want to be doing most of the work again. =(

closed blog

this is the first time i'm reading specifically to myself. =)

i'm not sure what love is. sometimes i feel our relationship is going nowhere and tend to wanna give it up. but other times, i still want to give in my best to this.

when i feel upset, i think there are only 2 things that can cheer me up.
1. you, because you are making me upset and you can cheer me up
2. think that i don't have a boyfriend. it cheers me up because i get less affected by your actions, or the lack of them.

but if you are perpetually unhappy, i guess i have to resort to the second option. and when i keep doing this, i tend to wonder. why do i even have a boyfriend in the first place?!

that said aside, i'm glad i mentioned about being unhappy to you. things seem better now. but i will never know if you are truly happy or if you are pretending just to make me happy.